My last photo was a path and it was 2 years since I wrote that post, now it is 7 years since that last post. It felt fitting to post another path as I've been down such a winding and changing path. That is life but it's wild to see how much things can change. 

Going at your own pace for life and settling down is something I touched on and I couldn't have been more spot on. I went at my own pace and at this point am now married with a baby on the way. Had anyone have pushed for that or if I found myself in the position for either things 7 years ago I would not have been ready. 

I feel more than ready to be a mother now - at one point I very much was against ever even having kids. At all - at any point. But when you find your person - you realize there is nothing more you would want than to have a family together. It changes everything. 

We also no longer live in NY. We moved to Colorado for not even a full year - broke our lease after 10 months because we hated it - and moved to FL. We'll be here a year on Halloween. Never in my life - not even 7 years ago would I have thought FL would be where I would end up but here we are and absolutely loving every moment of it. 

I work in costuming now and dress performers - literally love everyday going into work and there is just so much to do here. We've been so happy here and never at a loss for things to do or feeling like we can't just stay in if we don't feel like going out. 

I'm just ready to jump back into my roots and be in touch with my thoughts and fashion again so I felt it was time to revive this blog and creative outlet. 

We'll see what there is to come! 

xx D. 

Off the Beaten Path

I haven't written here in 2 years.

2 years ago I was in a weird place, just out of a 7 year relationship and in so many words - lost.

It was a weird place to be - 26 and newly single.  I lived a certain way for so long (I was a kid basically when I got into that relationship) that I came out the other side trying to figure out who I was and where I belonged as an adult, a single one at that.

The one thing I've come to notice over the past 2 years is how much changes in a few years. How much you could grow, how much life evolves and changes; I have had so many different phases in such a short amount of time. I think these years have been my hardest growing pains. Not so much in a way that they are sad, but it is a lot of change and a lot of letting go of old ways and starting anew. A lot of lessons, a lot of trial and error. I think most of my friends are starting to feel this right now.

It's these transitional years when society tells you that you should be settling down - but most of us don't actually feel that itch quite just yet. We like to go according to our own timeline.

That has probably been my biggest lesson, to go at my own pace and learning to listen to my own intuition on what is important for my life at that given time. Not what I feel I'm expected to be doing.

Who knows, but I'm into the journey and I love the direction I am headed.

xx D.

The things nobody cares about on FB...no, really. NO ONE.

I just would like to compile a small list of things that I (and I'm sure a good amount of other people) could care less about seeing ever again on facebook:

Food- 

The meal you just ate, and the one after that, and then the snack you had after that. We all have posted food, myself included - but for a REASON. I post the food that some health nuts would like to cook and tell them how to make it ON MY BLOG. If you're posting your fucking third burrito of the day I want to punch you. We know what they look like, yours is no different. I'm sorry your burrito isn't special, maybe one day it will grow to be unique and original. 

Cervix-

The word cervix, especially when you're writing about your own. Come on girl, less is more. We don't need to know. 

Baby Poo-

Your babies gross little poo in the toilet. I mean I'm not a mom, and I'm sure it's exciting when they finally go on the toilet because maybe you won't have to change diapers anymore. But, I don't want to see poo no matter how heavenly and sweet your little angel is, it still came from their bum and it's still poo. No Thank You. 

Lifeless Dogs- 

Every angle of your dog doing the same thing. Just. Lying. There. I love dogs, they're real cute and they're so much fun, oh my god! But one picture of your lying dog is more than enough. I wanna see tricks damn it!

Boredom-

How bored you are. Get the fuck off the internet and go outside. Go draw something, learn something, make something, walk somewhere, maybe even talk to a real live person not through your phone or computer screen. Do something, but stop expecting your FB wall to entertain you. It is full of other bored people, that's why they're on FB. 

Relationship Statuses-

Complaining about how you've been single forever and nobody likes you because of x,y,z. I can guarantee you, those are the kind of posts that are not helping your odds. PROMISE. Also, we don't want to see your passive statuses complaining about your boyfriend or girlfriend, it's awkward and also not my fucking business. Thanks! 

Plans-

Your plans for the entire day. Exciting plans, fine, lay them on us. But these plans: "Just got home, gonna make dinner, then feed the dogs, maybe eat a whole tub of ice cream and watch the biggest loser." WHO ARE YOU TALKING TO?? 

Let's go back to exciting statuses that share music, news, and mile stones you achieved. We like those! Otherwise keep it to yourself weirdo's. 

xx D.

Men? Are you out there?

No I mean real men, of the gentleman kind. 

Just because you can grow a beard doesn't make you a man, you're just an asshole with hair on your face. 

I might be single forever because I'm disgusted. 
I'm not mad about it or even desperate for a relationship right now, this is just an observation. 

I obviously can't lump every single guy ever into this, and I'm not. 

I'm sure there are still great dudes that exist but they must be hiding at the greatest depths of the sea because I sure as hell haven't seen many.

Most guys just want to fuck, and let's be honest, some girls just want to also. 
But maybe that's what's wrong with this generation and why real men have disappeared, because so have real women. 

For every girl that does have respect for herself, doesn't want to just sleep around, and wants an actual relationship, there are 10 girls already undressing themselves just because a guy smiled at them. 

Maybe it's lack of respect on both grounds, guys kind of have easy access and can get laid without having to put the work in so they don't care about the respect towards good women. I mean for some, why would they put the time in if they don't necessarily have to? And, some women have less respect for themselves and don't care enough to wait for what they deserve and will take what they can get. Maybe I have it all wrong. 

All I know is, I'm a good girl, I know what I deserve, and I won't be taking my clothes off for any smiles. 
You're gonna have to work a lot harder than that. 

xx D. 

Give me a break.

I've been so busy and stressed with my life lately. 

It's getting to a point where it's like well where the fuck am I right now? How did I get here? and Where exactly am I going?

There are so many things on the table right now for me to deal with and I'm not really sure what I want. 

Majority of what I have to decide on only has positive outcomes it's just all a lot to take in and figure out. 

I have little to no time to myself anymore, I spend majority of the week at work and the gym and then the little time on the weekend I do have I try to spend with friends but also get some time to just sit with myself. 

I have big decisions to make, and nothing is black and white. 

Anyways here is my progress pics for the past month. I've seen such insane changes in my body since I started clean eating and going to the gym. I'm so so happy and proud of myself for how far I've come. 

This year is all about big changes, and only for the better, this is the year that I make everything happen. I can feel it. 

Here's to making wishes a reality. 

xx D. 

Bed Ridden and Bored.

I need those bandages.

So about that medical condition, it has been the worst! 

I can't even explain the pain I've been in, I've never felt anything like it. I literally was on my way to work yesterday and the pain got so bad I called work and told them I needed to go back to the Dr. I was almost at work and turned right around. It was so bad I was crying. 

I have a high pain tolerance I can usually deal pretty well. My whole side was tattooed for 3 hours without flinching. This has felt insanely painful. I even took a painkiller and that didn't even dull the pain! It's really been that terrible. 

So I called a new Dr. right after I talked to my boss and was able to get an appointment later in the afternoon. She was super thorough and covered every possibility. She ended up giving me a stronger antibiotic. I'm still in pain there was nothing they could do for that but I can already feel a difference in the intensity. It's been a lot more bearable today. 

Anyways aside from a super uneventful and horrible week, I had a good weekend.

I went out with my coworkers to Brooklyn Bowl. If anyone knows me well, they know that one of the things I hate, and there's not many things, is bowling. hah! But I wanted to be a good sport and that's what all of them wanted to do so of course I went. I bowled a 15! I don't need to be drunk to do things, but apparently bowling is one thing I do need to be for, I've never bowled so low ever. Yikes! It was all in good fun though. I really love the vibe and ambiance in brooklyn bowl and I also love who I work with a lot so it was easy to have a good time regardless. 

I also went to my friend Jon's and we made dinner and drew pictures. We just relaxed, which is why I really like going there. We just can laugh and hang and I don't feel like I have to constantly be entertaining someone or talking. I can be quietly drawing without it being weird. Also his roommates dog Leo is the cutest pitbull on the planet and I love him. 

A few nights before I said something about a brownie inception and we realized that's completely doable so we made them. A oreo inside a brownie. AMAZING! So so so good!!

Jon cooked us an amazing dinner. It was quinoa and three cheese tortellini with sauteed spinach, pineapple, red onion, red pepper, and cranraisins. It was so so soooo delicious. 

Tomorrow I'm going back to work, I hate missing days so much. It makes me feel weak, but this pain was way too terrible and needed to be taken care of. It is the first day of fashion week tomorrow so I really would like to be in the office. I have to be thankful for having such amazing and understanding coworkers. A lot of the time I've worked places that didn't care how sick I was and would make me come in, but they really wanted me to rest and get better. I have a lot to be thankful for in the past year, I'm finally finding my place in the world and feeling a lot happier. 

Patience is a virtue. 

xx D. 

Bands A Make Her Dance.

Last night was an unexpected great night. 

I really wasn't planning on going out because I was and still am in a lot of pain and then my friends convinced me to come out. I was extremely bored anyways, all I did was go to the Dr. and the rest of the day was spent in my bed miserable. I have a bit of a medical condition but I'm not going to get into it. Wahhh, I know.  

I mean I was going to be in pain in or out of my bed so I might as well of had a little fun. 

We were supposed to go to some crazy warehouse party that got split up so we went to our friends bar The Leaky Lifeboat and ended up having the most ridiculous dance party.

My hair was drenched in sweat. Nice right?

We all take care of each other and feed each other pizza. We're so considerate. 

I also baby birded my friend, we're not about to make out, there's a lot of chewed up pizza on my tongue. What a lovely girl I can be sometimes.  

This was the song of the night, I kind of love it too much. 

I don't know what's up with me and rap lately but we're having some kind of an affair. 

This girl wasn't even drunk, but I was an animal none the less. 

The best nights are the one's that aren't planned.  

xx D.

Wall Inspiration #2

I added more to my wall and I love it. It has such a cozy little vibe and it makes me happy to have that to look at instead of a blank wall. 

xx D. 

Sweet Spots.

Working in Brooklyn makes me one of the happiest girls ever. I've always loved Brooklyn more than I could say, so much that I got the bridge tattooed on me. 

It has a life all it's own and it gives me this comfort and warmth I don't feel any place else. 

This week I made stops at two places that really are nothing you'd think to be special. One is a grocery store and the other is a florist, but when I'm at either place I love the character so much and the buzz around them. 

I just feel so at home and excited whenever I'm there. 

My go to Grocery is Brooklyn Fare. They literally have every single type of food you could think of, they have all the regular things you'd find at a chain grocery plus specialty items. My favorite window to look in though is their confections. They're the most perfect little treats and chocolates. They almost don't look edible or like I'd want to even because it'd ruin how beautiful they are. 

The other stop I made was to Opalia. The local florist. The way they have their plants and vases set up is so unique and inviting. It makes everything look so interesting and you don't feel like you're in just a florist. It's a place where you just want to walk in and look at the plants and arrangements. Everything is super beautiful. 

If you're ever in Boerum Hill you should take a look in either of these places, you can definitely find things here you can't in others. 

xx D. 

Instaslam #2

One thing that makes me nuts is when I overhear anyone or any of my friends saying "like omg they take so many pictures of themselves wtf?!" and they take pictures of themselves too. 

You my friend, are a major hypocrite. 

I take pics of myself whenever the hell I feel like it and it's because I'm like 'Oh whaaaat, I like the way I look today' and that's why anyone does it and that's why you do it. 

Ain't nothing wrong with that! It's just a bunch of people feeling good about themselves.

If your friends faces filling up your IG feed kills you, unfollow 'em. That's the beautiful thing about instagram. 

I mean it's not like facebook-when you unfriend someone and then they cry asking why you're not friends anymore. Because facebook totally defines all types of relationships, and if you're not friends on FB or a confirmed couple on FB you're not in real life either. Right? I mean...right? 

In IG world - you're a follower or you're not. 

This is my face!

xx D.